Today wasn’t so great. I cried myself to sleep last night, had a few nightmares, and woke up to find no messages or missed calls from you. I continued to lay in bed with my phone next to me hoping i get a text from you. It never came. A tear rolled down my cheek. After a few more minutes of waiting for something that was never coming i went over to the computer to check my facebook, hoping i’d see a post from you on my wall. There was nothing. What i did see was that you weren’t in my relationship status anymore. My heart dropped down to my stomach and i felt sick. I went back to bed holding my phone just wishing i’d get a text from you. Once again, it never came. Me and my family spent Thanksgiving at my auntie’s house in otay. I was thinking about you so much during the car ride there i almost shed a tear but of course i didn’t want my parents to notice so i tried my hardest to hold it in. Before we ate, we went around in a circle so each of us could say what we were thankful for. Honestly, i wanted to say that i am thankful to have you in my life but you seemed to have stepped out of it and i don’t think you want me in yours. You just seem so perfectly fine without me. I just know you can make it on your own without me being in your life. You mean the world to me. I would do anything i possibly could to have you back in my life the way we were just about a month ago. Right now, it feels like things fell apart so much that we can’t go back anymore. I don’t think there has ever been a time i have been happier than i was when you came back into my life last month. I honestly would die right now just to see the happiness we both once shared. You are the one that picked me up off the ground after i’ve been treated like shit for about 3 years. You are the one that fixed my heart which i thought was beyond repair after my previous relationship. You are the one that gave me the comfort and assurance that everything would be okay. All that appears to be dead and gone. The unbelievable joy we shared was shortlived, only lasting about 2 weeks or so. I couldn’t have taken it for granted. I cherished every moment. I don’t know what happened between us but now my heart is once again broken and my happiness has faded away. I miss the way it felt when you kissed my lips. I miss the way it felt when you told me you loved you. I miss the way it felt when you called me babes. I miss the way it felt when you held me close. I miss the way it felt when you would look at me during class and smile. I miss the way it felt when your quiet snores on the phone lulled me to sleep. I miss the way it felt when you slowdanced with me to our song at homecoming. I miss the way it felt when you ran to my house just to see me. I miss the way it felt when you brushed away your bangs so i could see both of your beautiful eyes. I miss the way it felt when you blew kisses to me on the webcam. But Most of all, I miss you.
Studies have shown that our tears actually contain hormones and chemicals produced by strong emotions or pain so when we cry we are literally ”letting out our feelings.” That is why we feel so much better after crying about something very upsetting or painful. Go ahead and cry if you ever need to because it’ll sure do your body good.
super tight jeans+cell phone in your back pocket+being in a hurry to pee=your whole life down the toilet.
fuck me >:[
im sorry to hear that :/ if it makes you feel any better, my dad dropped his phone in the toilet right at the moment he flushed so it was gone for good haha, and my mom dropped her phone in the toilet like a couple days later but she got quick reflexes so she grabbed it before it slid through the hole. pretty gross lol [:
Don’t forget to log off of tumblr in AP Computer Science class or Frances Armas will mess with it haha! Freakin’ Frances, right when i shut the laptop off i realized i was still signed on but i was thinking, ‘oh i deleted all my history so i hope it also deleted the fact that i was online’ LOL. i learned my lesson and frances, you fail thinking the whole time i wasn’t following you until you reached the end of your post haha[:
You forget to log off your tumblr! BUWAHAHA! You’re gay, because you didn’t even follow ME! PLUS you don’t talk to me anymore. You’re freaking lame! So I’m going to mess with your tumblr. Anyways how are you?! I never see you anymore, the only times I do see is SATs! HAHA. You’re always following me! You’re always in the same class as me and you only say hi to me. GAYGAYGAY! You even stop IMing me! WTFFFFF is that?! HAHA! It’s okay, you’re still the best and I love you foo! BUT, I STILL WANT MY KAI-LAN DOLL! I want want want want! Hmm, I bet by already reading this you already know who wrote this x] anyways follow me! Francesarmas.tumblr.com! Got it? WOO! I miss you too, and say hi when I see you before I kick you in your shins! Okaaay, I must get back to apstats, I have a happy friday. Bye Ryan! (:
♥ Frances [:
P.S. I just notice that you do follow me! I think I don’t follow you x] I’m going to do that right NOW! (:
I sure hope the school doesn't block tumblr anytime soon
Here I am, stuck in AP comp sci falling extremely behind in all the work. FML man i wanna go home!! I have a new book cover for my government book lol its little gorillas hanging onto bamboo sticks. Yeah, it sounds cute but they look sooooo ugly hahaha. u could make them dance lmfao. okay im offa this shit. back to doing nothing in this class -_-
After going through so many tumblrs, wasting countless hours of my life reading posts and looking at hella funny/interesting pictures, I finally made one of my own. I am extremely lazy right now. I have to type up a personal statement and post a response on the discussion board but nooooo, I made a tumblr lol. I needa learn how to procrastinate on procrastination.